This has been an amazing period in time. Not for altogether good reasons, but in all GOD is getting so much Glory! This period could be difficult but GOD has truly worked all things together for good. He is Great.
I find it difficult to write about, mainly because of privacy to the individual, But I recently lost a close friend at the age of 27 years. Until now there had been no funeral arrangements, It has been a very sensitive time for me. Even to the point I felt I could not do anything where I would be 'socialising'.
However I had tickets to see Maxwell last friday night. I struggled no end, thinking it was wrong to have fun when he had not even been laid to rest. I know J.. would have been ecstatic to know I even GOT tickets in the first place! I found it so hard though. In the end though we had a great night.
Maxwell was amazing, what a performer! and very humble, he appeared surprised to even have so many fans in London. no hype, no glitz, just great talent. The best concert ... I think ever! Just my sort of thing.
Bittersweet, would best describe this time/ season.
Today I thought I heard J's laughter in our staffroom, sometimes I think, I need to speak to him, or ask him a question, then remember he is not there. However on the other hand there is so much love and support around. We are all very much closer and more caring since we lost him. Why do we wait to lose people before we love? Then forget so quickly the pain of our loss, and eagerly try to hurt one another again. I guess in the end, we will learn.
In life J had a very big heart, The Irony of that statement is that, that was how/why he died. I did not realise that lots of people would go to him for manly advice, he was a good listener, kind, caring.
I miss him very much. R I P ... J H.
Last night we found out the funeral date, finally. I felt relieved, that I was going to have to go through the next phase of loss. It is in times like this that God has made his very presence felt, and I am very grateful.
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